Chapter 1 The Beginning

by Amarie

When I received a call from the celestial world, it was not so easy for me to be simply delighted to. I wasn't sure the reason why, but I felt I prefer dying instead of accepting it. Even though, I didn't understand it well at that time, I clearly see the reason today, 15 years later.

Then, the spirit who called himself Michael admonished me: "You, such a weak minded. Why don't you just make up your mind to accept it! " "I have only a longing for happiness as an ordinal woman." I said. Looking back in those days, I had all happiness that I was longing for. Having four lovely children, a sincere husband, a wealthy life, a healthy body and surrounded by lots of friends too, it was my happiest time ever in my life. I suppose I already knew without conscious thought if I accepted this call, it meant I would lose everything I had then. And Michael said: "Now, you had enough. You've been being contented with the trite happiness of a woman." Maybe, happiness of my marriage was able to last in a limited time only as though I could not imagine so. I must admit that it was allowed to last within a limit until the new mission would be descended to me. Michael continued more "Seeing you in such a status, completely spoiled in happiness, makes me feel deep grief. How can you think of just your own happiness? Accept this mission right now and be ready to get up." Thus, I answered him back in fighting words like "Well, it's none of your business. If you wish it so much, then do it by yourself. But, certainly not me. Just leave me alone!"and we started arguing afterwards. It is already the nostalgic history.

When I took the first message from El Ranty, the spirit of the nine dimensional world, I fainted. At that moment, massive flow of the electric charge passed through my body and it made me losing my conscious. Surely, I was feeling about the risk of taking a message, but I realized how the strong energy passed through my body such as the scene of the film" Moses'Ten Commandments". I was told I used to be a medium in my past life. Furthermore, keep receiving the strong energy from the spiritual world in a physical body of the three dimensional one causes a disorder and an illness, called "illness of Medium". I ended up my life several times in the past lives due to this illness. Therefore, I had a feeling about the approach of the fortune as same as the past lives, when I was told by Michael to accept the mission. If submitting the messages of God from the celestial world was really my mission, it is typical of me to accept everything at the last minute. To compare with the life time of the past lives, I think we are very safe and lucky to be born today. While I was hesitating to make up my mind, Jeanne d'Arc murmured nearby me "How I wish if I could do only housework by my mother." - Well, yes, indeed. I've never heard a 16 years old girl who is fond of war. Besides, she was killed in fire in the end. When she asked me "Comparing mine and yours, which do you prefer?", though I might be ill, but I thought I was much happier than Jeanne. I am taken care of by hands of many people now. Michael said "You hardly move or do anything by yourself but learn to be receptive to the loving care that others offer. I was always thinking how I could be helpful to or not to be on the shoulder of someone so that I often rejected to let myself receive Love. It is necessary for me to learn that a man never be able to live or complete the mission alone, but to live supporting and covering weakness one another. In order to do that, my life was planned includes this kind of illness. Hearing so 15 years ago, it did not make any sense to me because I was so full of beans and everything was going well. Those words just started being absorbed in me now a day.

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